I started this blog as a journal for when I was going through some very challenging times. In rapid succession I was told I had a rare uterine anomaly; a mass on my kidney and that I was one step away from cancer (completely unrelated to the mass).
It would be dishonest of me to say that I handled everything gracefully.
What has turned out to be the most eye-openning lesson of that year is that I discovered something unique about myself. I discovered that I doubt God most during the minor inconveniences of life and trust Him most when things look darkest.
I can sit and fret about the silliest of matters and ask God
"Where are You? Why aren't You helping me?"
As if He really cares that I lost my keys.
But when life is at it's hardest. When all else seems lost. I find Him to be just as He should be. It is humbling to see such a pristine example of why God is in charge and I am not. He can bring me through fears of barrenness and cancer. I can't bring myself through a case of missing keys.
Two years removed from that most difficult year I find that God has, in His timing, removed each of the concerns that were presented to me during those troublesome days:
1) One day after the mass on my kidney was reported, no doctor or technician could find it.
2) One year after the 'near' cancer diagnosis I was told I didn't have to come back for further testing. No signs of pre-cancerous growth had ever been found after that first test.
3) Three years after I was told I had a uterine anomaly that might lead to premature or stillbirth, I gave birth to a healthy son.
All three things now tied-up neatly.
Life is good....and I should write about it.
